Patchwork – Oliva / Transgender UK

Hi I’m Oli Spleen and I am originally from Hastings which is an interesting & difficult place to grow up, if you are different Since childhood I always felt closer to women than men I remember from the first day at primary school, I asked my mother why am I not a girl? because I didn’t feel like I was able to act in the way that the other boys did at school I also would wear make up and women’s clothes from as young as I could remember, mostly at my grandma’s house This is her, and this is one of the earliest pictures of me. I’m dressing up I think my alter ego is called Jean Farnfield, at the time. She was a gardening presenter. Men to me, at that age, seemed very disapproving authoritarian figures When women, my mother, my sister, my grandmother and her friends I was very close to them. and they seemed warm and caring and the thought of turning into a man was something that horrified me at that age. But in the same time I was made to feel that if I’d express myself in a feminine way it would be seen at something very unacceptable Luckily I’ve lived into a time where gay and trans people are a part of our social vocabulary we have a far better understand of these things As I became a teenager, my love of alternative music led me to realise that there were subcultures and androgony within the music world and I didn’t have present myself in the way society expected Hi Hi Oli! How are upi? Hello darling! Though, this time I resigned myself to the fact I was male I realised I could have an impact on those around me by challenging notions of masculinity And what it is to be male rather than challenging or changing my physical gender I might have transitioned if I had have confronted these things before puberty and grew up in more enlightened times but it wasn’t something I felt I could have talked to my parents about I don’t believe in the notion of opposite sex I think we’re all more female and male than we let on And to a considerable degree it’s social conditioning which leads us to present ourselves in a more masculine or feminine way To me ideas of mascuinity and feminity are largely social constructs We are all female in the womb in our earliest stages of developement I don’t know if there are some colors that resonate with people, but maybe I am genderqueer but one thing I am not very tolerant of is definitions, so therefore I avoid that one as well as the gender one (singing) You motherf*ckers need someone to hate They’ve got a burden and you’re feeling its weight ‘Cause you don’t fit into their narrow-mind’s space You’ve been kicked down and spat in the face Do they insult you, do they call you a fag Use you as a human punching bag Lash out at you because they’re scared of
themselves It’s always easier to hate someone else